This week has been to over come my fears. I can say fear never leaves you it is where you place the fear that drive you or holds you back. The new job I started had things that I hadn\’t done before, I had to go to orientation and do a road test with the new company. I have been in a automatic for 5 months, this company has Manuel 13 speed Transmissions which I have never driven before. Plus it was in a group so I had to back between two trailers while the others watched. So I guess I don\’t like people watching me but the career I have chosen has me in the view of many.
My nerves were shaking anticipating my turn? I kept taking big breaths to calm myself down thinking about the time limit only 15 minutes to back into the space. Only 15 minutes to get it done. I chose to be last to see how everyone else did, now it was my turn, I jumped in the Truck fumbling to find the right gear, so I made it to the set up for backing the truck got out did the walk around like I was supposed to, got back in put it in reverse back just until I was just going between the two trailers got out and looked as they instructed me to do and got into the truck backed half way got out and took one last look before my final park job it seemed like forever but it took only 7 minutes for all of that to take place. Next was the road trip I decided to be last again so I could see the pattern for shifting, I felt sick to my stomach knowing my turn was coming. Well I passed with flying colors, shifting was a little rough but it wasn\’t bad my maneuver were smooth.
When talking to the other people in the class it seemed they had the same fear. Judgment of others. As I observed the action of my coworkers, everyone but 2 supported and encouraged others.
One girl sat by herself on the fist day, that bothered me, I understood because I don\’t trust people either I made a comment to her that she hurt my feelings she didn\’t sit with us, the next day she joined the group but didn\’t talk, today she was breaking out of her shell, I told her I was proud of her saying what she had to say and sitting with the group. She gave me her number when we got back to the hotel. I was surprised and glad she did hoping to grow a new friendship.
This is new for me, I\’m loving it.
Getting rid of fear of the unknown and embracing the power within