These two weeks have been quite the experience as I sat for one whole day with no electronic tried for three but the forces to get my business off the ground over powered me from sitting in silence. When I found my self getting scattered I sat again to refocus for the next thing I should do.
I\’m still planning for the three day of silence. Right know I am doing about 5 hrs. All to myself.
Each day is a new discoverywith the tools I have been given, I am more aware of things that are going on around me and how to handle the emotions that are stirred up.
I had read an old letter yesterday that in raged me it was written 2 years ago, but I just seen it yesterday. The words where hurtful because this person doesn\’t know what has been happening in my family , she hasn\’t been around for 4 years and is just going off of the things she and I experienced in the past together, she is playing my kid against me and placing all the blame on me.
Anyway I have been sitting thinking about why this hurts so much, many of times I\’ve wrote her off not wanting her in my life because of the anger she stirs up along with other family members, they say they put the past behind, but keep saying things that show otherwise.
As kids are impressionable in there teen years and agree with people who share thier same opinions, I guess this is the journey they have to take and see how it plays outs.
Plus it wasn\’t my letter to read, another thing is I only want positive people around me, although she thinks she is the best solution for my kid and I pray that is true. How can she be positive for him when she is talking bad about me to my kid? I haven\’t got the answer for that one yet.
As Og mentions, \”I make allowances for his anger and irritation of today for he knows not the secret of controlling his mind. I can withstand his arrows and insults for now I know that tomorrow he will change and be a joy to approach. \”
I am a master of my emotions.
It is said I can tie any emotion to anything that comes my way, as well the things that have happen do not define the person I am becoming. We all have past choices that we regret or things we wish we would have done differently and maybe not, you can say you are sorry a million times about things done, it is thier problem if they can\’t forgive you. It is thier banana, their Bear keddle megnifing years that they want to hold against you. I love them for who they are, and move on to the person I want to be, Hamonous, Happy, Loving and at peace with Natural Law.
I will make sure that my Mind, Body, and Soul are all in balance and I get things done in a certain way to get the riches I deserve and give back to others and not be in compatition with anyone. Forgive everyone no matter where they are or what they have done to me.
I doesn\’t matter.
Keep shining bright like the Star You Are